Weird I woke up today and remembered going to work the morning after Mike killed himself. I remembered the conversation with my boss and I also remembered the conversation the day before in the bar about Mike her and I had. Its just funny to me how my brain has blocked that memory for many years and now today it was so super vivid and clear. wonder what trigers shit like that?
Wow I guess they never delete accounts here!. . I stopped posting here long ago as it was a painful reminder of Mikes death somehow. 3 years later I am still all messed up in the head and have a hard time dealing with it. But I thought I would post so maybe in 3 more years I will feel like journaling again!